Waiting. (Insert angry face)

Wasn't planning on posting tonight but when it's 1:07a and your heart is heavy... This is what I do. 

It's been pretty quiet here lately. We did have another situation arise but we had to decline. The cost was far beyond our means. 

Meanwhile we wait. Every single day feels like Christmas or the night before your birthday or the last day of school. Then the following day goes by and it's like your sick and had to reschedule or cancelled the party. Then it all starts over again. I can't tell you how often I pray for a phone call or email. Not even a yes just a hey we've got something for you... 

It's hard. I don't know how to explain it but it's hard. I wonder a lot what God's thinking. What his plans are. Then I relax a bit and take a seat. Then I realize how old I am and how many children we discussed having by this age.

 Me. Me. Me. It's not about me. It's about Him. 

This is His assignment for us. We're just waiting for the next part of the syllabus.

I'm growing more and more impatient as the days pass. I could use some advice as to change my heart. I've even asked for signs but I must be missing them as I've seen nothing.

It's about time to start thinking about renewing our homestudy as it expires in January. 

I'm also starting to work on our Both Hands template letter. 

Idle hands...

Love you all. This might not make much sense in the morning but at least I got a few things out of my mind so I can get some rest. 

Hello!

We reached summer vacation back before Memorial Day! We've since gone on vacation to Florida, Louisiana, and Texas. We got to spend some amazing time with my parents and Rob's brother and sister-in-law. 

Now that we're back I'll update you all. 

While in Florida we applied to and were accepted to Christian Adoption Consultants. We're working with a wonderful consultant names Leah Braly. They will help us by significantly speeding up the matching process because of their amazing networking abilities. Problem. By joining this firm our cost for adoption has gone up from $10,000 to $25,000+. We currently have saved up $8,000 after having spent $2,300 to Christian Adoption Consultants. New agencies in their network will cost application fees as well but happily many have waived the fee because we are clients of Christian Adoption Consultants. 

That being said this weekend we raised $423.39 completing a yard sale! We have yet to get going on the Both Hands project. We are getting behind but we have been busy. We had to replace the carpeting in our living room with Pergo flooring. Then we had to do some much needed chores inside and outside of the house. We've updated our adoption profile book and have decided to change companies so that we have a digital copy to send out. So many projects so little time remaining as I go back to work August 15th and the kids go back to school August 17th.

Rob and I are also trying to enjoy moments together as a family. At the Yard sale Jackson was very verbal in sharing our adoption information with everyone who visited. He was such a great help! Lydia was a seller, just like her Daddy. 

Thank you all for coming out this weekend! Hope to see you again in the future!

God Bless-